There comes a time in everyone’s life when they need to see that for some things you just need to let them go. Things like situations that you try your darndest to rectify and nothing you do is ever enough. Your efforts sometimes may even make the situation worse if you do not stop.
I am at that point with a situation in my life. I have to let it go because my self-worth is deteriorating as a result of my still trying.
The one thing about myself that I constantly have to work at is keeping my self-esteem in check.
High self-esteem is not a natural occurrence for me….it is something I have had to build up over my lifetime and it is an ongoing effort to maintain. If anything, it is a natural occurrence for me to want to tear myself down….especially if with all my efforts, situations do not change or get better.
Also, what does not help is that I have had plenty of people in my life who want to tear me down too. It’s kind of like a “catch 22″, when you have low self-esteem your actions give it away. Everything you do says who you are. People who have less self-esteem are attracted to you because of it….the cycle just keeps going.
What is very true about me too, is that I am a stubborn person….very. I really hate to quit or give up on something until I have exhausted every idea that I can think of and it still does not change the situation.
Some people seem to know right away to give up on a situation. I do not. I believe that we are given situations in our lives to teach us things about ourselves. I just don’t know how much or how little I am supposed to do before I give up, or give in to it. Perhaps for me that is the lesson here to be learned.
When I begin to feel like who I am as a person is compromised because of all that I am willing to do to get someone to see me as valuable and worth while in their lives is when I finally see that it is time for me to let go of the situation.
People are going to see what they want to see no matter what I do or how well I treat them. Some people just do not have inside of them what it is I want for them to have. They are not capable of giving me what it is that I want so I have to just rely on myself and do the thing that is best for me in the long run…….let go of the situation and believe that everything is going to turn out just the way it is supposed to.